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 That
was wrong. We didn't. She's complicated. She's prickly.
I
live in an adult World, but I'm a kid. I love the work. But I no longer
have a group of friends to hang out with regularly.
I
was told that my going to college wouldn't be good for my career. I
think that's nonsense. It's good to empower yourself by cutting yourself
off from this business every once in a while.
I
have a huge, active imagination, and I think I'm really scared of being
alone; because if I'm left to my own devices, I'll just turn into a
madwoman.
My
line about Arnold is that he doesn't get in his own way. He is not
apologetic about achieving his goals. And when you have that attitude,
it's amazing what one can accomplish. He wanted to give me relationship
advice. I was having trouble with a female friend, and he said, be
really forthright and do not accommodate her needs excessively. I took
his advice and we're not friends anymore. So there you go.
I
was intimidated. There was the accent, the period of the film, and I had
to act badly. I kept laughing during those scenes because I was
god-awful. I've worked so hard to be good, and now I had to work even
harder to be bad.
It's
very difficult to judge yourself. Extreme self-doubt is only attractive
when it's fictionalized. Which is why people love the movies. They are
so reassuring.
I
had an unwavering focus. My parents never condescended to me. As a
child, I always sat at the head of our dinner table. I was always given
a lot of responsibility. It was all rather amazing when I think about it
now.
I
was a very confident child. I knew I wanted to be an actress from the
age of 5. Madonna
was my original muse -- around 5, I saw her perform on TV, and I
realized that performing could be one's vocation. Then, at 7 or 8, I
realized that most actors don't make a lot of money, and I amended my
plan. But at 9, I seized my destiny. I made a formal announcement to my
parents that I had to be true to my art. Money or no money, acting is my
calling.
I
never thought of myself as a child actor. I knew I was a kid, but they
weren't related. There was nothing I could do about being a kid, and
meanwhile I was an actress, and I had something to say in my acting.
I
think that everybody wants to create, to do something that feels genuine
and kinetic and spontaneous. I think actors want to surprise themselves.
When it's really good, you kind of transcend yourself, and that happens
infrequently. Very, very rarely. You might get one or two of those
moments on a film, say, and sometimes they don't even use the takes
where that happens. And I'm not really that moralistic about how you get
there.
I
would like to have a family, but I'm trying not to make any plans,
because when I do, everything goes wrong.
I'll
never wear a thong again. I'm a Speedo gal.
Usually,
my social life and my sanity and my health are the things that are
sacrificed.
The
point of acting is to share, to connect. That's why I act. Acting is the
greatest answer to my loneliness that I have found.
Acting
is the greatest answer to my loneliness that I have found.
But
I don't know if people are meant to be together. You have to have a lot
in common, choose well and be really fortunate. It's not like you're
sprinkled with fairy dust. You have to believe that love will be there
when you need it.
Fame
doesn't end loneliness.
Growing
up, I wanted desperately to please, to be a good girl.
However,
I'm at a very comfortable place in my career and celebrity, in that I
don't have to audition as extensively as I used to for roles but yet I'm
not immediately recognizable.
I
began to develop obsessive-compulsive behavior.
I
did Little Women, when I was a very little woman myself. But America's
history is not as impressive as your own.
I
don't need to be exposed to people's opinion of me; it just makes me too
nervous.
I
feel like I'm turning into more of a woman - I'm getting ready to leave
home, go to college, be independent. It's an exhilarating time.
I
finally realized that yeah I did want to be an actor and it wasn't out
of habit, but I needed to grow up for myself and then kind of re-enter
the industry with a sound understanding of what my sensibilities and my
values are as a relatively formed human being.
I
get a little jealous of these actor boys. They walk into a club, and in
two seconds flat there are swarms of girls who are wanting so badly to
touch them or just say hello. That's not the case with me, or any other
girl I know.
I
hadn't been free from adult responsibilities since I was 12, and I
needed to experience that. I really needed to just be a kid again.
I
have a huge, active imagination, and I think I'm really scared of being
alone; because if I'm left to my own devices, I'll just turn into a
madwoman.
I
have this home in New York, I have a long-term relationship with my
boyfriend, who's from Australia, and I had this business that I had
maintain. Even though I wasn't actively shooting, there's a lot of
peripheral work.
I
haven't been threatened in the way that has crippled me, emotionally or
physically.
I
know, it's true. I've played these tortured teenagers. I can't wait to
shed that image.
I
really liked Yale, although it was extremely intimidating. When I
visited the campus, I was hiding behind trees, I felt so unworthy.
I
think anybody who knows how to make a good movie knows that it's a
collaborative undertaking. To deny that is really dangerous.
I
think because I am as earnest as I am, people were accepting of my
evolving into a certified, legitimate, and grown up and I did take three
years off.
I
took three years off. I differentiated myself from the industry. Found
my identity - sort of... I haven't graduated yet. I'm not legitimately
educated yet, but maybe one day.
I
wanted acceptance. I still do.
I
would sign on for projects that were meant to shoot in July, and then
they would postponed and they would bleed into the following semester,
and then I'd take a semester off, and then the movie would collapse.
I'm
only realizing now that I was a child actress because I always took
myself so seriously.
It
seems like the most successful, iconic love stories are not so easy or
escapist.
It
was interesting because I was very representative of teenagers,
especially with My So-Called Life and Romeo and Juliet, so I was like a
teenager in an abstract and literal sense, which was a bit peculiar, but
I couldn't dwell on that as it would drive me pretty insane.
Maybe
philosophy - I love talking about ideas. Or maybe art history. I was
thinking about psychology, then I got really afraid because everybody
says it's terribly boring.
My
character was kidnapped by the Terminator and I was kidnapped by the
Terminator production.
There's
certainly something very uncomfortable about the voyeurism involved in
being in the press, being an actor, where people have a seemingly
insatiable curiosity about, you.
Three
years had passed since I had acted, and I missed it. I missed it
terribly.
What
I needed was a connection to life that was real and lasting.
When
I was 18 I went to college for two years and didn't work for a year
which was essential for me, because my identity had been so influenced
by my being an actor and I think I just needed to discover what it was
to be myself, divorced from all that responsibility.
Yeah,
there was the Flora Plum thing, where I trained for about a month and I
had taken a semester off for that, and two weeks prior to filming, the
financing collapsed.
You
don't realize how useful a therapist is until you see yourself on e and
discover you have more problems than you ever dreamed of.
You
know, let a few years go by until I hit my midlife crisis. Then that can
be documented on film.
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